I was at the Mexican market some time in June ready to check out when I spotted Cosmo For Latinas. I didn't even know that it existed but having a self proclaimed and undying love for fashion magazines, I was interested and picked it up. I read through it once. Read through it again. Then read through it for a third time.
I liked it.
I liked it a lot.
I connected to it.
So I wrote the above comment on their Facebook page.
But I know there will be some questions as to why I don't consider myself to be Latina. I actually kind of hate the word. Not in the sense that the term applies to others, but in the sense that the term doesn't apply to me. I don't liked be called 'latina'.
I consider myself to be mixed. People always ask me what I am and my usual response is, "a mutt" to which they normally laugh a bit, but in all seriousness, that's what I am.
I'm culturally mixed. I have Spanish, Irish, German, Native American (Lumbee, Cherokee, Comanche) and Mexican blood flowing through my veins. So when people try to classify me as being purely Latina, I have to nicely, and sometimes not so nicely tell them "No." On forms, I usually have to mark 'decline to state' or 'other'. But every once in a while, I'll get an updated form that has the option of 'two or more races' and I get to gleefully check that box instead.
To say that I'm Latina would be to deny my other heritages and I'm not about that life. I celebrate my diversity albeit in the stereotypical way. I root for Spain in sports, I go to Oktoberfest, I eat cabbage and potatoes, I've gone to a few powwows and California is practically Mexico junior. I can read and understand Spanish better than I can speak it, and I joke by saying that I know enough to ask for more tacos, more tequila, and directions to the bathroom, but the reality is, I could get around if I needed to.
That's why I was glad to see that I actually enjoyed reading CFL, and why I wrote that comment. As a person with Hispanic/Latina roots, I'm happy that I was able to identify with a magazine that showcases all the skin colors and cultures of the Spanish speaking diaspora. I've tried reading 'latina' magazines before and I just couldn't get into them. I didn't see myself as it's target market. So to pick up CFL, randomly mind you, and be able to identify with it's content made me really happy.
So while it's a kind of blasé explanation as to why I don't consider myself Latina, it's pretty much the main reason.
I'm mixed and I refuse to deny any part of my being.